Day 1 of COVID-19 in my home

When you are chronically ill and you live in a house with someone who got diagnosed with COVID-19. I knew my mom went to the chiropractor but what I did not know was that my stepdad was going to the doctor. I went downstairs to get something and I asked my brother where he was he said the doctor. I called my mom to see if he went into Lubbock to see his specialist. Then she tells me no he went to the doctor in town and she told me he did not feel good but they thought it was his usual sinus stuff. I call her later as a normally do as she did tell me that they did test him for COVID-19 I was worried. The good thing is I have not been around him since last week he went out of town and went back out of town. He didn't get officially back till yesterday and I never spoke to him or was around him. Well, I walked down the stairs and I hear him on the phone telling someone from his work he tested positive my heart literally fell I could feel the rest of my body just shacking inside out and I sat down on the stair before I fell. I was in a panic and I didn't know how to react. I was honestly hoping I did not hear correctly but then my mom pulls up and she said keep your mask on I then knew 100% he was positive. I freaked and went upstairs to my room. I can't tell you what was going through my mind because it was all a daze. Well, I went to my room and stayed in it basically I shut the door went and laid on my bed just trying to not think about it at all. I was so scared I have not talked to anyone about it because I really don't want to think about it because I end up tearing up and I'm trying to be strong. I always have put so much on myself to be strong for everyone else around me . Wich being strong all the time normally affects me after a while and not always in a good way. I know that through Christ all is possible! During this time I have really turned to him hard I know he knows the situation I am in and he hears my prayers. Jesus Christ loves each and every one of us so much and he will answer us.