Dear Epilepsy,
Some people would think I am crazy because at the moment instead of being mad at you, I am going to tell you, Thank you, Not because I think you are amazing or anything! My reason is that with your help I have become this loving caring determined positive helpful person I am today. I get to connect and help others so much easier than others because I can relate with them in a different way and even if it is not the same issue I can still shine light and hope in their lives. Epilepsy you have shown me who my real friends are! I have learned the hard way about who pitty's me and who is my true friend. I some times just feel like a charity case. I know who I am thou and I am so much more than Epilepsy. Epilepsy you may be a part of me, but you do not have me! I may get frustrated and annoyed with you. You make me feel so weak and sometimes lately you have caused such a problem that no one knows what is wrong. I have more disorders and problems because of you. You might have helped me become the person I am, but you also cause me heck and make me feel alone and weak and so much more than I can explain. I want you to listen up to me for a minute. YOU WILL NOT BEAT ME! YOU WILL NOT WIN and YOU WILL NOT STOP ME! I will accomplish so much, I will go to school and get a degree and get a job. I will succeed and I will have a family and I will get married in the temple. I will have children one day. I will be a child life specialist one day and put an impact on their lives. I just want you to know we are NOT friends. You are just apart of me that is it. I am NOT epilepsy and you just need to know that. You make me mad I cry because of the pain you put me in with doctors and the doctors quitting on my case. Top doctors dont even know what is wrong with me. I have more problems and you did this to me. You think you own me but you do not! You are just trouble do you know the heartache you give me and my family. I want you to know our relationship is a Hate Love relationship. I get so tired of you and I get so frustrated and so much more. I know thou that if I did not have you and all the challenges that come with you. I wouldn't be who I am today. I love being able to help others and understand. I am very strong because of you. You made me grow up quicker then I should have. I was made fun of in fourth grade so bad that it is very difficult to talk about. I would not change that experience either because it helped me grow in ways I can not say. I have a purpose and I know there is a reason for you to be in my life. Well epilepsy I just want to say thank you and I also want to say I very much wish I didn't have you! Here is the thing I do have you so I will just continue pressing forward day by day! You have done some good things in my life. I would not want to have not had the experience of having you. That does not mean I do not want to be seizure-free or have hope that I could be. The thing is I do have hope and I do want to be seizure-free! YOU WILL NOT WIN!
sincerely rachell